This must be why

pain doesnt really describe
no words really do
to be abandoned is something you can never really explain
to someone that hasn't been

not knowing that he's to drunk to drive you home
and letting a strange officer do it for him
while he's on his way to prison
is something that doesn't surface in most conversations

the tears shed by a brother
enough to make any mother cry
pale in comparison to the gut wrenching heartache
that accompanies every suitor
because a replacement is never as good as the starter
that's why they're riding the bench

a mother's lonliness
is only compounded because of her kids
they don't like anyone and refuse to approve
what's a woman to do
long days at the office
longer nights completing chores
that woman's a warrior

pressure to perform
responsibility to set a good example
the golden boy you're suposed to be,
who can live up to that
you certainly had no intention to

all being product of a grown boy running away from his responsibility
tired of being married
tired of having kids
decided his interests were more important
he felt betrayed
he felt like there was nothing he could do
but there's always something
and he didn't seem to care enough to try

this must be why I don't cry
or can't
or dont try
but I guess I get that from my father
genetics.
that must be why